“我好像哄不好自己了”

心好疼，止不住的疼，也许你说的对，我太想要一个结果了，所以无果。

My heart aches so much, it can't stop, you are right, I want a result too much.

那就这样吧，这次我哄不好自己了，这次我选择后退，不在较劲了。

Then it's like this, this time I can't comfort myself, this time I choose to retreat, not to compete anymore.

到此为止，是最好的收场吧，次次认真，次次教训，次次失望，我累了。

So far, it's the best ending, every time I take it seriously, every time I get a lesson, every time I'm disappointed, Im tired.

缘分尽了，我连解释的念头都没有了，这样挺好的，不期望，不失望。

The fate is over, I don't even have the thought to explain, it's good like this, no expectation, no disappointment

我假装把一切看得无所谓，实际上每个无所谓的瞬间都在刺痛着我。

I pretend to see everything as nothing, but in fact, every moment of indifference is piercing me.

我懂的，连天气都是瞬息万变的，谁又能保证身边的一切不会变。

I get it, even the weather changes in an instant, who can guarantee that everything around won't change.

其实，我瞒着所有人，装作迈过了好多坎，故意显得很开心的样子。

In fact, I hid from everyone and pretended to have overcome many difficulties, deliberately appearing very happy.